FINAL EXAM!

everything just around da corner..
i've 2 push everythng and put aside my keisure time!
i've 2 focus on study first...
dis sem,,
a lot of xsgnment,,test,,quiz,,
n subject bcome more hard!!
struggle..
i'm afraid i'll make my parent dissapointed wth me again..
huhuhu....
idk,,why my result bcme worse evry sem,,
it's terrible...
Ya Allah,,,bantu lah aq,,
terangkn lah hati ku ini..~~
permudahkn lah aq mnjawab peperiksaan,,,
bantulah kami ya Allah..
~amin~

Allah maha adil,,,
aq pasti tentang itu...
aq redha ngn sgala ketetapan-Nya...
segala yg trjdi dlm hdup kt de hkmah nye..
buat rkan2 yg aq sygi,,
maaf jika aq bkn rakan yg bek tuk kalian,,,
diam ku bkn krna benci atau marah.,,
aq hnye perlukn masa tuk muhasabah diri...
aq ingin jdi someone yg lbh bek dri ri ni...
maaf jika aq mengecewakan kalian,,
terlalu byk bnda trjdi dlm hdup aq 2,3 mnggu ni..
smua mengecewakn,,
ble aq dpt sesuatu,,sesuatu yg len aq trpksa lpaskn pergi..
aq ase x brdaya sgt...
korg beri aq kekuatan,,
bkn aq x hargai,,
aq syg korg...tp sometime,,,
aq ase nk brsndri..sbb 2 masa aq lbih byk diam,,,
sory kawan2...
aq sedih,,,sakit,,,kecewa ble aq kehilangan someone yg sgt aq syg,,sgt bermkna
dlm hdup aq...
separuh diri aq hlang,,
xde mkna snymanku lg,,,
tp aq xkan tnjuk aq sdih dpn korg..
aq leh kekal senyum sbb korg..
aq xmo korg rsau,,
tp tau x korg,,dlm hati aq menangis tiap2 hari..
tp aq kuatkn gak hati,,,tabahkn gak dri...
aq xnk dipndang lemah...
Allah je tau prsaan sbnr hati ni...

s.a.k.i.t.n.y.e.r.c.i.n.t.a~~

sakitnyer bercinta,,,
sgt2 skit bile terluka,,,
bru ku fhm erti kecewa,,
aq terasa diriku amat hina,,
xmmpu menangguh sebuah kekecewaan ni,,
Ya Allah,,kuatkn la hati ku ini,,
Ya Allah,,hanya padaMu aq meminta,,
Ya Rabbi,,,hanya kpadaMu aq mengadu,,,
Ya Allah,,berikn la aq petnjuk,,
tnjukkan lah ku jln yg seharusnya aq lalui,,
Ya Allah,,
skitnye Ya Allah,,
mampukah aq menangguh semua ni???
pnjmkan lah kpda ku sdkit kekuatanMu agr
dpt ku teruskan hdup di dunia ini,,,
Ya Allah,,,
aamin,,,

npe hdup cm gni?
bkan nk menyesal ngn pe yg aq trma skrg,,,
aq bersyukur,,
but,,did i do somethng wrong in da past?
why life always cruel??
or we r da cruel one??
uhuhhuhu..
there's a lot of thing happends in dis life,,,
could i be da tough girl 2 through all of dis???
is it really hard 2 love me??
so much questions in my mind rite now...
plz,,,someone answer it...
huhuhu...
i'm afraid i don't have any strength 2 face
and through dis life..
i'm always wonder whether
is dis life will always like dis???
when i can felt da happiness??
huhuhuu..
i'm tired with dis life..
plz,,i juz want happiness,
i juz want 2 be loved..
not like dis..
if u do not want me anymore,,
why don't you tell me?
='(

you,,,

missing u all day,,,
my heart can't stop missing u,,,

my story,,,

emm,,,
aq nk cte pe ek post kali ni..
cte sal life aq kat mimet la,,
around 4weeks kat mimet,,
mcm2 jdi..
de bnda yg suke,,,de bnda gak yg duka..
ble happy,,kt ketawa,,
ble sedih,,kt menangis,,
biasa la manusia..
aq pon sama gak cm2,,
bkan tiap2 ari aq happy..
byk kali gak sedih..
emm,,
ble dh jdi mcm2 2 la..
aq blaja erti kehidupan..
erti pershabatan...
susah senang tanggung sama2..
aq happy,,korg happy..
korg happy,,aq lg la happy..
hehhehe..
antara prstwa yg pling aq ingat,,,
emm,,waktu de org serang aq n mr.white aq
kat fb..
huhhuu..
time 2 smua tlg aq..
terharu sgt..
time 2 plak fb aq xleh nk post comment..
aq ase dak 2 bengang gak ngn kwn2 aq ni..
ye la,,mmg panas hati kna psycho..
huhuhu.
pe2 pon,,thankz guys...
sal hbgn aq,,
i learn somethng,,
emm,,i should give him some space 2 do what
he want 2 do...
gve him some freedom,,
mcm yg die wat,,,
aq ase brsalah coz mcm slalu sgt push die..
n it keep haunting me..
sory syg,,
i really don't mean it...
it juz bcoz,,i love you..
hope u will understand..
study plak,,
byk class yg xsama ngn dak2 ni,,
aq try nk biasa kn dri..
hehe..
emm,,try 2 b independent...
siapkn xsgnment on time,,
study lbh kerap..
trying my best 2 get da best result..

luahan hati,,,

emm,,

ari ni pnat ckit lor...

g rushing wat medical check up,,,

tuk SEA MAN card..

abiz RM170..

duit pon dh biz..

emm,,,

td mama msj,,

sedih la ayat msj mama,,

act,,aq de ckp ngn mama sal mmpi aq 2 hari lpas..

aq mimpi gigi bwah aq de 3,4 batang yg patah..

tbe2 mama ckp de petanda..

tp xtaw...

ntah la..

rsau lor...

"salam ayu,,mama dah potong rambut pasal ayu mimpi 2,,

agaknya mama x,yg nk jalan dlu..."

cm2 la msj mama...

sebak dada aq baca..

smga smua ahli keluarga n org yg aq syg

terhindar dri sgla bhaya...

amin..

aq syg smua..

smua penting tuk aq...