WHAT I SHOULD I DO
BY PARK DA YE
ENGLISH TRANSLATION




when i let you go one step further,
my eyes overflowed with tears
when you walk one step further,
more tears are falling
as move away to a place
where i can't reach you,
even if i reach out my hand
i can't reach you,i can only cry

CHORUS:

what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you are leaving me
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

all day long i try to forget you,
but i think of you again
all day long i try to say goodbye,
but i think of you again
when you went to a place
where i can't hold you,
even if my han reaches out to you
i can't see you, i can only cry


what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
I LOVE YOU ONLY
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

what i should i do?
what should i do ?
i only have you
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
what i should i do?
what should i do ?
you're leaving
i love you,
i love you
i cry out to you
but you can't hear me because
i am only shouting in my heart

final year project

sem july 2010,,,
brmula episode bru dlm hdup aq...
last sem de kat MIMET...
huhuhu...
sem jan 2011 dh start practikal...
i'm wonder after dip ni,,nk wat pe ea...
hehhee...
insyaallah kalo de rezeki smbng degree..
so far bru survey course
SAFETY & HEALTH..
yg len 2 akan dilihat lg..
btw,,sem ni kna wat final year project...
aq nyer project about mimic board..
hope mnjadi project aq ni..
n sem dpan gak aq mst bz cri company
tuk wat praktikal t...
agk2 dpt ke x ea??
hope dpt company yg ok..
huhuhu
wish me luck~~

emm,,
skunk ni ngah cuti sem,,
dpt gak blik umah..act xnk blik...
nk tman ma belovd friends kat campus wt training..
tp trpksa gak blik..
bru bpe ri kt umah dh rndu dorg smua..
huhuhu..
i'm trying 2 frget someone...
all about him,,
i hve kept it in da box..
far away from me...
da only way i can forget him....
hope it's work!!!
huhuhu
aq de knal ngn sorg ni..
xtaw npe,,aq ase selesa ngn die...
ase ikhlas nk brkwan ngn die..
tp xtaw la die cmne..
but at da same time,,,
ase curiga n x prcaya 2 still mghntui diri aq g..
aq tkut jdi cm dlu g...
i'm not ready 4 dat...
huhuh...

pe2 pon,,,
ktorg juz friend at dis moment...
aq xtaw cmne leh tmbul keselesaan 2...
emm,,,hope friendship ktorg will never ends,,,
aq ragu2 g,,die ase bnda yg same o just ayat semata2,,,
huhuhu..
(^_^)

btw,,result dh kuar...hahhaa...gpa aq nek kalo nk compare ngn sem lpas..
sem pas dpt 2.89 je...sem ni dpt 3.02...
but cgpa plak jtuh 0.02..
cmne jdi g2 ea??
huhuhu..pe2 pon...i'll make sure last sem...
i'll get da best result!!!!chayo2...
heheehhe..

K.a.M.i

~27/5/2010~
>>Gelas ni bukti aq dh blnja axhar,yus n wiya...
act,,aq juz jnji ngn Yus & Wiya je..
tp tbe2 tgk Axhar...
trus la blnja die skali..heehhe...
ktorg beli smua burger yg large size..
2 yg dpt gelas ni..
ktorg g mcd coz nk meraikan,,sempena kes pertama yg ktorg
siasat brjaya...

"MISTERI KEHILANGAN LAPTOP AXHAR MANYWOKAQ"
~dgn berkat usaha Yus , wiya, axhar n yg len2 tu...
laptop axhar dijumpai...

NAK TAW SAPE PENCURI NYE???

.....................................HUHUHUHU..................................

emmm,,BIARLAH RAHSIA,,,,,(mcm lagu SIti lak)

ni la AXHAR MANYWOKAQ yg famous tu...
heheehe...

~lepas je kes brjaya diselesaikan,,,mmg kemana2 bwa lappy die 2...
hehehe...mmg syg tol..~

ha,,fyi,,,,yg amek lappy die 2,,,kawan die gak...mmg smua org xsngka...tp kt ni manusia biasa,,,,mst de wat silap..aq hrp dak 2 insaf..huhu..n jdikn pngjarn smua ni,,,kan???

kita ni manusia biasa je,,,byk wat silap..so,,aq harap dak 2,,mmg insaf...kt sama2
doakn die ea...

~h.e.a.r.t.b.r.o.k.e.n~

Love is a haunting melody that I have never mastered and I fear I never will.
~ William S. Burroughs ~

FINAL EXAM!

everything just around da corner..
i've 2 push everythng and put aside my keisure time!
i've 2 focus on study first...
dis sem,,
a lot of xsgnment,,test,,quiz,,
n subject bcome more hard!!
struggle..
i'm afraid i'll make my parent dissapointed wth me again..
huhuhu....
idk,,why my result bcme worse evry sem,,
it's terrible...
Ya Allah,,,bantu lah aq,,
terangkn lah hati ku ini..~~
permudahkn lah aq mnjawab peperiksaan,,,
bantulah kami ya Allah..
~amin~

Allah maha adil,,,
aq pasti tentang itu...
aq redha ngn sgala ketetapan-Nya...
segala yg trjdi dlm hdup kt de hkmah nye..
buat rkan2 yg aq sygi,,
maaf jika aq bkn rakan yg bek tuk kalian,,,
diam ku bkn krna benci atau marah.,,
aq hnye perlukn masa tuk muhasabah diri...
aq ingin jdi someone yg lbh bek dri ri ni...
maaf jika aq mengecewakan kalian,,
terlalu byk bnda trjdi dlm hdup aq 2,3 mnggu ni..
smua mengecewakn,,
ble aq dpt sesuatu,,sesuatu yg len aq trpksa lpaskn pergi..
aq ase x brdaya sgt...
korg beri aq kekuatan,,
bkn aq x hargai,,
aq syg korg...tp sometime,,,
aq ase nk brsndri..sbb 2 masa aq lbih byk diam,,,
sory kawan2...
aq sedih,,,sakit,,,kecewa ble aq kehilangan someone yg sgt aq syg,,sgt bermkna
dlm hdup aq...
separuh diri aq hlang,,
xde mkna snymanku lg,,,
tp aq xkan tnjuk aq sdih dpn korg..
aq leh kekal senyum sbb korg..
aq xmo korg rsau,,
tp tau x korg,,dlm hati aq menangis tiap2 hari..
tp aq kuatkn gak hati,,,tabahkn gak dri...
aq xnk dipndang lemah...
Allah je tau prsaan sbnr hati ni...

s.a.k.i.t.n.y.e.r.c.i.n.t.a~~

sakitnyer bercinta,,,
sgt2 skit bile terluka,,,
bru ku fhm erti kecewa,,
aq terasa diriku amat hina,,
xmmpu menangguh sebuah kekecewaan ni,,
Ya Allah,,kuatkn la hati ku ini,,
Ya Allah,,hanya padaMu aq meminta,,
Ya Rabbi,,,hanya kpadaMu aq mengadu,,,
Ya Allah,,berikn la aq petnjuk,,
tnjukkan lah ku jln yg seharusnya aq lalui,,
Ya Allah,,
skitnye Ya Allah,,
mampukah aq menangguh semua ni???
pnjmkan lah kpda ku sdkit kekuatanMu agr
dpt ku teruskan hdup di dunia ini,,,
Ya Allah,,,
aamin,,,

npe hdup cm gni?
bkan nk menyesal ngn pe yg aq trma skrg,,,
aq bersyukur,,
but,,did i do somethng wrong in da past?
why life always cruel??
or we r da cruel one??
uhuhhuhu..
there's a lot of thing happends in dis life,,,
could i be da tough girl 2 through all of dis???
is it really hard 2 love me??
so much questions in my mind rite now...
plz,,,someone answer it...
huhuhu...
i'm afraid i don't have any strength 2 face
and through dis life..
i'm always wonder whether
is dis life will always like dis???
when i can felt da happiness??
huhuhuu..
i'm tired with dis life..
plz,,i juz want happiness,
i juz want 2 be loved..
not like dis..
if u do not want me anymore,,
why don't you tell me?
='(

you,,,

missing u all day,,,
my heart can't stop missing u,,,

my story,,,

emm,,,
aq nk cte pe ek post kali ni..
cte sal life aq kat mimet la,,
around 4weeks kat mimet,,
mcm2 jdi..
de bnda yg suke,,,de bnda gak yg duka..
ble happy,,kt ketawa,,
ble sedih,,kt menangis,,
biasa la manusia..
aq pon sama gak cm2,,
bkan tiap2 ari aq happy..
byk kali gak sedih..
emm,,
ble dh jdi mcm2 2 la..
aq blaja erti kehidupan..
erti pershabatan...
susah senang tanggung sama2..
aq happy,,korg happy..
korg happy,,aq lg la happy..
hehhehe..
antara prstwa yg pling aq ingat,,,
emm,,waktu de org serang aq n mr.white aq
kat fb..
huhhuu..
time 2 smua tlg aq..
terharu sgt..
time 2 plak fb aq xleh nk post comment..
aq ase dak 2 bengang gak ngn kwn2 aq ni..
ye la,,mmg panas hati kna psycho..
huhuhu.
pe2 pon,,thankz guys...
sal hbgn aq,,
i learn somethng,,
emm,,i should give him some space 2 do what
he want 2 do...
gve him some freedom,,
mcm yg die wat,,,
aq ase brsalah coz mcm slalu sgt push die..
n it keep haunting me..
sory syg,,
i really don't mean it...
it juz bcoz,,i love you..
hope u will understand..
study plak,,
byk class yg xsama ngn dak2 ni,,
aq try nk biasa kn dri..
hehe..
emm,,try 2 b independent...
siapkn xsgnment on time,,
study lbh kerap..
trying my best 2 get da best result..

luahan hati,,,

emm,,

ari ni pnat ckit lor...

g rushing wat medical check up,,,

tuk SEA MAN card..

abiz RM170..

duit pon dh biz..

emm,,,

td mama msj,,

sedih la ayat msj mama,,

act,,aq de ckp ngn mama sal mmpi aq 2 hari lpas..

aq mimpi gigi bwah aq de 3,4 batang yg patah..

tbe2 mama ckp de petanda..

tp xtaw...

ntah la..

rsau lor...

"salam ayu,,mama dah potong rambut pasal ayu mimpi 2,,

agaknya mama x,yg nk jalan dlu..."

cm2 la msj mama...

sebak dada aq baca..

smga smua ahli keluarga n org yg aq syg

terhindar dri sgla bhaya...

amin..

aq syg smua..

smua penting tuk aq...

class bermula,,,

lbih kurang 2 mnggu dh class start!

huhuhu...pnat,,

2nd week je dh byk xsgnment kna wat..

quiz n test..hahaha.

mmg kna fokus sem ni..

lg 2 sem je nk biz..

sem dpan last de kat mimet..

pas2 sem 6 praktikal..

huhuhu..

raya cina ni nk amek BST..

hehehe..

pas2 hjng sem ni plan nk amek short sem tuk thermo..

nk btulkn pointer sbnrnye..

hehhehe..

sem dpan dh kna usha n antar resume kt

company2..

hehe..

kna cpat...

emm,,

sem ni dh xleh men2..kna capi target pointer...

wish me luck...

my hero

~sweet memory lor~

dis is my dear ........hehe....

he is so important in my life^_^

love him..hehe..

WHAT SHOULD I DO??

emm,,,

rite now,,

mcm2 aq ase skrg ni....

kekeliruan,,,

syg die tp,,,

npe cam aq ase aq juz bertepuk sblh tgn je skrg ni??

npe hbgn ni makin lama mkin hambar??

pe yg patut aq wat??

aq sunyi bangat skrg..

emm,,aq dh xtau nk wtpe skrg...

mmg la xpatut ckp gni..

tp aq ase terhegeh2 skrg...

ntah la..

aq je byk sgt pk kot...

whatever la...

aq mls nk pk...

redha ngn smua ni..

~s.w.e.e.t.m.e.m.o.r.y~

ni gmbr ngn dak2 ni..syg dorg la..

korg yg terbek r!!!

sweet memory lor..

miss you so much!!

@ panggung wyng!

esk dh start class..

tp xbest r..xdpt sama class ngn kwn yg len..

isnin de 1 class je..hehe..10am-12pm..

emm,,ptg esk kalo xde pe2 kna g prjmpaan

club memanah..haha..mcm xcya je..

btw,,9/jan/2010,,

g tgk wyng..cte OLD DOGS..

haha..seriously..

cte ni leh wat org pecah perut..

aq sndri xthn nk gelak..

xtau la pas ni ble lg de masa nk updates blog ni..hehe..

azam thn bru stakat ni,,

ok la..hehehe..

emm,,sem ni walaupun xsama class ngn kwn2 yg len,,

aq xleh give up!!

aq blh je hdup sorg2..

k?chayo2..

me!!

hi??

hehe..ni gmbr aq pling latest..yan make up kn..huhu..

mcm tebal sgt lor make up ni..kelakarnye muke aq.hahha.

emm,,yan pesan kna jga penampilan skrg ni.hahaha.

coz umur dh msuk 20thun

but not sure lor leh maintain gni o x..

aq ni smple je..

peace!!hehehe..

01/januari/2010

01/01/2010

dah msuk thun 2010!!

hehe,,azam kena baru..lol..

emm,,bz ckit 2,3 ari ni..

nk kna settle kan hal company...

nsib rmy yg membntu..thankz guys,,

ni azam thun bru aq:

• target pointer 3.4 tuk sem 4 ni..i'll study hard n smart 2 achieve it..
• emm,,nak berubah mnjdi someone yg lbih berkeyakinan,bergaya n matured dlm sgla hal..
• kumpul duit tiap2 bulan at least rm50.
• keep on exercise every week!!
• kurangkn berat bdn lg,,at least turun lg 2kg..so,,aq nk berat 42kg..agak2 leh ke?
• nk kurangkn mkn nasi sem dpan,byk kan mkn buah!!
• nak jdi seorg yg lbh menghargai sahabat,keluarga n org tersayang..
• nk bntu kwn2 slgi termmpu n nk brjaya sama2!!
• emm,,pe ea..ha,aq nk lupakn smua kngan pahit thun 2009,,aq nk bina hisup baru~
• nk jdi seorg yg lbh memahami n berfkrn terbuka n kreatif,,chayo2..huhu..
• n mnjdi seorg kekasih yg menyenangkan hati MR.WHITE..hehe..
• emm,,i'll try 2 make sure hbgn cinta ni kekal selamanya,,insyaAllah,amin..
• pe lg ea??ha,,xnk mlas2 lg wat xsgnment..hehe..dpt je xsgnment trus wat..
• pling penting,,mst capai target pointer yg di targetkn..huhu..
• emm,,kalo de duit lebh,,nk g melancong ngn kwn2..
• abiskn blaja lesen mtr b4 bulan march ni..yg pntng bulan 4 dh de lesen P tuk mtr..
• B4 thun 2010 biz,,mst dah dpt lesen P tuk krta plak..
• akan berusaha brsama2 yg len tuk make sure THE MUT ENTERPRISE kekal maju n dpt untung brlipat kali gnda!!amin.
• nk berbaik ngn smua org,,yg pntng try 2 b better person in 2010!!

setakat ni 2 je kot..

hehe,,kalo de lg akan ditambah..huhu..

hope 2010 mmbwa seribu 1 kenikmatan n rahmat..

~amin~